That's all we can do. There are days when I truly go around asking myself, is this a bad dream? Is this honestly our new reality??
I consider myself a pretty positive person, and I do try and make the best of each day, but sometimes the ache of missing my son is just overwhelming. I haven't even begun to grasp the true meaning of what is in store for the future....it's a mere two months and a bit....I cannot imagine going into the future without him being a part of our family and physically here with us. I believe in "signs" and I hope that there is a wonderful afterlife where he can look down on us and be here with us. I need that, I need to know that my son did not die in vain, that part of him IS here with us.
It is unreal how a life can change in a moment...one minute he was here, asking if I had a lint roller, and another he was gone..forever. For anyone that has a child, imagine the pain of not seeing that child again...
As my cousin said to me...."pick the best of the day, and god will handle the rest." Truly, this is how I have to handle my days. My heart has honestly never, ever hurt so much. It is a pain that does not ever go away, no matter how hard you try....it's always there.
Love you always and forever...Love mom...XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
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